A fighter to the very end.
These are the words that come to my mind when I think of my father, or papi as my siblings and I call him.
For five years my dad fought the arduous battle that so many before him, and after him, have fought. Three weeks ago our papi succumbed to the cancer he bravely faced each day for all of those years. It wasn’t because he didn’t have the will, it is simply that a body can only take so much.
Like the millions of people out there that have been through this, there are so many feelings and questions. Why did he get cancer, why did he have to suffer so much? It just wasn’t fair. Cancer stole so much from my father, and from all of his loved ones too. I refuse to let my father’s memory be overshadowed by his disease, my father was so much more than that.
Growing up my father and I were very close, and even though I have always fondly cherished those memories and lessons, they have taken a new meaning and an even bigger space in my heart and soul. These past three weeks I’ve come to a realisation of just how so many of my fondest and happiest memories involved him one way or another. I am truly thankful for that.
My father was reserved and somewhat shy if he didn’t know you, but he was the type of man, the type of person that you wanted in your corner. He was always there for us and always ready to offer a helping hand not only to his children and grandchildren, but to the extended family and friends. We all knew that my father was very liked by many people, but it has been really touching hearing stories of things my dad did for others, or how they even considered him their second father. I just hope that he too knew just how much he was loved by so many.
There are so many things I want to write and share with you so that you too can get to know the man I proudly called father, but my mind is still tying to make sense of it all, trying to accept the new order of things. A time will come when I’ll be able to better do so.
For now I wanted to explain the reason for my absence. My father’s death has helped me reflect on my life and happiness, there are some things for me to ponder and in due time I will share these thoughts, ideas, and plans with you.
I’ll be back very soon.